Realisation

I’ve come to the realisation that I actually hate living as the only adult in the house. Sounds ridiculous, but I honestly wish that myself and my daughter could still be living with my mum and stepdad.

Don’t get me wrong I love the area I live in, and I like my house itself…but living as the only adult when you’re anxiety is an absolute arsehole is not nice.

Usually on Wednesdays Mum stays over, but for the past couple weeks we’ve stayed over her house instead so that she can still do her farm jobs so that my stepdad doesn’t have to do them ontop of all his other work.

I always sleep all the way through the night when I stay at mums. The bed is so comfortable, it’s peaceful being surrounded by farm land, and I don’t feel anxious at all because I know that I’m not the only adult in the house aswell as having a dog there which just helps to feel more safe too.

Now I have mentioned before how I hate the noises that houses make, and with all the hot weather we’ve had recently, it makes houses click and creak even more. Im feeling quite poorly at the moment with Hayfever and an IBS flare up, but I’ve just spent over an hour sat up at the end of the bed because a house click scared the shit outta me. The logical part of my mind knows it’s just the house clicking from the temperature changes, and that it isn’t possible to get into my house quietly because I’d either hear smashed windows, or id hear both doors as they both kinda stick and make a lot of noise when opened and closed. And yet my anxiety brain makes me believe there’s someone in my house, and send me into panic mode.

So I can honestly say I wish I still lived with my mum. Or if she had like a ‘granny annex’ thing on their land I’d love to live in that as I’d still feel safe knowing I’m close to them.

Moral of the story, don’t be so quick to move out!

🔹immeamy, you’re you, and that’s the best way to be🔹

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Light as a feather, stiff as a board: what’s your message?

When I was younger, there was a thing that people would do at sleepovers etc where one person lays down, and others sit around them placing their first 2 fingers of each hand underneath them saying “light as a feather stiff as a board” and the person laying down was meant to float. If you’ve seen the film The Craft they do it in that.

But there was another more ‘reliable’ thing that I used to do with open minded people. I can’t for the life of me remember who taught me it, it may have been a guy called Nath but I’m not 100%. So I thought I’d share it with you so you can try it if you want to 🙂 it’s not necessarily a spirit ghost thing, it could actually be seen as a mindfulness type thing I think.

Get the person to lay down comfortably either on the floor, sofa, bed, wherever. Once they’re comfy, tell them to close their eyes and not open them til you say so at the end, and take hold of their left hand making sure you don’t let go.

This is now the ‘script’ of what you say.

Before we start, I want you to know that you are safe, nothing can touch or hurt you. Think of my hand as your shield, like there’s a protective bubble around you. Nothing can harm you.

I want you to picture a house- pay attention to how it looks, the garden, the windows. Now walk towards the front door but before opening it, take in what the door looks like, the colours, the handle, the number.

Open the front door and walk through to the living room, paying attention to how everything looks.

There is a stair case outside the living room, I want you to walk up them and into the first room you see, closing the door behind you.

This room is full of everything you love, everything that makes you happy. Friends, family, art, sports, just everything you can imagine that you love. Pay attention to how all these things make you feel.

Now you turn around and exit this room, closing the door behind you and going down the corridor to the next door.

Before opening this door, pay attention to how it looks. The colour, material, the handle.

Enter this room and close the door behind you.

This room, is again full of everything you love, but, it’s all destroyed. There’s darkness, and nothing you love is the same anymore.

Pay attention to how this room makes you feel, and remember nothing can harm you.

Turn around, leave the room closing the door behind you, and go back down the stairs into the living room.

In the corner of the living room, there is a hooded figure. Step forward and listen to the message it has for you. Once you’ve listened to your message, squeeze my hand.

I now want you to leave the house, still paying attention to your surroundings and remembering what was said to you in the living room.

I’m going to count down slowly from 10, and I want you to open your eyes when you’re ready and sit up by the time I reach 0. Remember to keep your breathing steady.

(Slowly count down from 10 to 0, once 0 is reached you can release your hands and ask the person how they feel. If they want to share their message with you they can, if not then it’s fine for them to keep it to themselves).

This is always best done in a silent place so that yourself and the other person can concentrate.

🔹immeamy, you’re you, and that’s the best way to be🔹

Boredom: 99 random questions

How is it not even 1pm yet? 😩 man I hate Sundays. I was watching random old YouTube videos and came across these questions so thought sod it let’s answer them for something to do.

1. Do you sleep with your wardrobe door open or closed?

Closed

2. Do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?

I’ve never been to a hotel posh enough to even have them…good old travel lodge for me! Lol

3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or not?

I can’t stand being tucked in it makes me feel trapped

4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before?

I don’t think so no…have taken a cone before though

5. Do you like to use post it notes?

All the time. I make a lot of lists

6. Do you cut coupons out but never use them?

I don’t go out of my way to cut coupons out, but I have done it before where I’ve seen one and thought oh cool I’ll use it but then totally forget about it

7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees?

Bees, they’re less likely to kill me

8. So you have freckles?

I do indeed

9. Do you always smile for pictures?

I try to smile a little, I’m not a teethy smiler I hate my smile

10. What is your biggest pet peeve?

I’ve got way too many to choose from. Let’s go with noisy messy eaters

11. Do you ever count your steps when you walk?

Yes I do it quite often as a distraction from anxiety

12. Have you ever peed in the woods?

Yes I have, I spent a lot of time camping in the woods in my early teen years

13. What about pooped in the woods?

No I’m not that brave 😂

14. Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing?

Yeah I do actually as I often have songs in my head

15. Do you chew your pens and pencils?

No! I hate that

16. How many people have you slept with this week?

A humongous total of…zero. And it’s been zero for about 5 years now (jeeze that’s longer than I thought!)

17. What size is your bed?

Double

18. What is your song of the week?

Rather random, Take A Bow by Rihanna and Before He Cheats by Carrie Underwood (think that’s her name anyway)

19. Is it ok for guys to wear pink?

Of course it is if they feel comfy in pink then go for it

20. Do you still watch cartoons?

Yes I do, I have a 3 year old lol

21. What’s your least favourite movie?

I don’t know really… I know years ago I wasn’t keen on Donnie Darko but I haven’t watched it recently to know if I like it now or not

22. Where would you bury a hidden treasure?

Well I’m not gonna tell you am I!

23. What do you drink with dinner?

I try to only have water with my dinner now

24. What do you dip chicken nuggets in?

If they’re from maccy dees then nothing, if they’re frozen ones then either ketchup, mayo or salad cream.

25. What is your favourite food?

Chocolate, Chicken, Broccoli, Pizza. (Not altogether obviously)

26. What movies could you watch over and over again and still love?

Labyrinth, The Prestige, The Breakfast Club, Jack, Mrs Doubtfire…there’s a lot tbh

27. Last person you kissed/kissed you?

Family is my daughter. Not family was Mackenzie back in 2016…been a while! 😂

28. Were you ever a boy/Girl Scout?

Not officially no. I went to a couple of Brownies sessions with a friend when I was younger but I didn’t like it.

29. Would you ever pose nude in a magazine?

Probably not, I hate how my body looks and have 0 confidence so wouldn’t be able to do that. If I did then I wouldn’t wanna be totally nude I think it looks better to leave something to the imagination

30. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?

Few days ago, I wrote a letter to my Nan to go with some drawings my daughter wanted to send her.

31. Can you change the oil in a car?

I know how to check oil levels, but wouldn’t know how to change it

32. Ever got a speeding ticket?

Nope and hopefully never will

33. Ever run out of petrol?

Not yet no

34. Favourite kind of sandwich?

Either cheese spread with cucumber and salt, or marmite with ready salted crisps.

35. Best thing to eat for breakfast?

I’ve never really been a breakfast person tbh. I wouldn’t say no to a full English though

36. What is your usual bed time?

I usually go upstairs with my daughter around 9-10, then fall asleep anywhere between 11:30 and 4am.

37. Are you lazy?

I can be yes, it usually depends on what mood I’m in

38. When you were a kid what did you dress up as for Halloween?

I don’t remember really doing trick or treating, I think I’ve been a witch before.

39. What is your Chinese astrological sign?

Rooster apparently

40. How many languages can you speak?

English, tiny bit of French, some German, and an alright amount of basic sign language

41. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?

Nope. As a kid though I had the Sabrina The Teenage Witch, Groovy Chick, Tracy Beaker, and some animal one though.

42. What’s better, Lego or Lincoln logs?

I have no idea what Lincoln logs are so I guess Lego

43. Are you stubborn?

Yes lol

44. Who’s better, Leno or letterman?

I have no idea

45. Ever watch soap operas?

Does that mean soaps like eastenders, or stuff like Friends? If so then yeah

46. Are you afraid of heights?

No I’m afraid of falling

47. Do you sing in the car?

Yes

48. Do you sing in the shower?

Yes

49. Do you dance in the car?

I haven’t yet but I’m sure I will do. I’ve danced in a car as a passenger though

50. Ever used a gun?

Yes I have when living on a farm a HUGE rat had eaten some poison from somewhere and was right by our front door barely alive so it was kinder to shoot it and let it out of its misery.

51. Last time you had your photo taken by a photographer?

I think it was 2012/2013

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?

Some can be but I like musicals

53. Is Christmas stressful?

It can be regarding money

54. Ever eaten a pierogi?

Wtf is that

55. Favourite type of fruit pie?

I’m allergic to pastry so…

56. Occupations you wanted to be as a kid?

A vet was the main one, then I think I wanted to be a teacher for a bit.

57. Do you believe in ghosts?

I do indeed

58. Ever have a deja-vu feeling?

No I tend to get a feeling of knowing what’s about to happen sometimes though

59. Take any daily vitamins?

No I probably should though

60. Wear slippers?

Sometimes, I need to get some new ones actually

61. Wear a bath robe?

I’ve got a dressing gown but I don’t wear it getting out the bath

62. What do you wear to bed?

Either a top and underwear, or pyjamas

63. First concert?

City And Colour

64. Walmart, Target, or Kmart?

I’ve never been to any of those

65. Nike or Adidas?

Neither

66. Cheetos or fritos?

No idea what fritos are but I do love Cheetos

67. Peanuts or sunflower seeds?

Peanuts

68. Ever heard of the group Tres Bien?

Nope

69. Ever take dance lessons?

Nope, wish I did though

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

I couldn’t care as long as they can support them self financially

71. Can you curl your tongue?

I can make it into a kinda tube shape if that’s what this means?

72. Ever won a spelling bee?

Don’t think I’ve ever done one

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

Yes I have

74. Own any record albums?

Nope

75. Own a record player?

Nope

76. Regularly burn incense?

Not anymore, i used to all the time though when I was younger

77. Ever been in love?

Yep and it hurts 👍🏻

78. Who would you like to see in concert?

If my anxiety wasn’t an arse, I’d love to see P!nk.

79. What was the last concert you saw?

City and colour

80. Hot tea or cold tea?

Hot

81. Tea or coffee?

Tea

82. Sugar or snickerdoodles?

Sugar

83. Can you swim well?

I don’t even float.

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

Yeah just not very long

85. Are you patient?

I can be

86. DJ or Band at a wedding?

DJ, that way you can request all sorts of music

87. Ever won a competition ?

I won a kite design competition when I was in junior school, a competition of who could raise the most money for mencap in senior school, and my poem about Remembrance Day won for my tutor group in senior school. Also helped Nan win a laptop.

88. Ever have plastic surgery?

I haven’t no, but part of me wants a boob job though I’d never do it because it’s stupidly expensive and the surgery terrifies me lol

89. Which are better, Black or green olives?

Neither they’re both rank

90. Can you knit or crochet?

Nope

91. Best room for a fireplace?

Living room

92. Do you want to get married?

I’d be happy to just be engaged or have a promise ring kinda thing. I like the idea of both having a ring to symbolise the relationship. If I did ever get married I wouldn’t want a massive wedding as I hate being centre of attention lol

93. If married, how long have you been married?

I’m not…I’m not even in a relationship lol

94. Who was your high school crush in your year group?

Erm… probably Jac Bryson, Phil Hughes, and I did at one point have a thing for a lad in my tutor called Sean, he was one of the popular kids but wasn’t a dickhead to me.

95. Do you cry and throw a fit til you get your own way?

No I’m 25 not 5.

96. Do you have kids?

Yes I have one

97. Do you want kids?

I’m happy just with my daughter, though part of me would like to have a second.

98. What’s your favourite colour?

Black, green, pink, red I think.

99. Do you miss anyone right now?

Yes a few people

🔹immeamy, you’re you, and that’s the best way tobe🔹

I hate dreams

Mine are either nightmares, or leave me wishing the dream was reality.

About ten years or so ago I met a guy called Joe. Honestly, that’s the first and only time in my life that I have fallen in love at first sight. And I’ve loved him ever since and always will. We’ve had moments together, and at one point we were so close to actually being a couple but I fucked it up (basically someone at the pub asked if I was his girlfriend, he smiled and said you’d better ask her…instead of taking that as a hint and saying yes, I didn’t know how to answer). We can go months, sometimes even years without speaking properly purely because life gets in the way, but I know if I really needed him he’d be there. And I’d like to think he knows I’m here for him too.

Last night, I dreamed that we had finally got together, and that we were so happy together. He made me feel safe and loved, just like he did back when I spent most weekends staying at his house. I felt complete in a sense.

Then I woke up. And I cried…I cried because I wish that dream could be a reality, but the chances of it ever happening are very slim…if not impossible tbh.

Why must my dreams do this to me? Even the nice dreams leave me waking up feeling sad 😔

🔹immeamy, you’re you, and that’s the best way to be🔹

It’s been a while…

So I haven’t written a blog post in a while, and I didn’t finish that 30 day challenge thingy I was doing. I’ll be honest, I kinda just couldn’t be bothered. I didn’t know what to write about, so just thought I’d leave it for a bit.

I’ll be honest I still have no idea when I’ll regularly start posting again, I seem to have writers block. But I thought tonight while I’m sat in bed watching lion king 2 with my daughter that I’d do a bit of a life update thingy for anyone interested.

I posted in May that I had finally passed my driving test, and I’m pleased to say I got my car yesterday. It’s a silver 2003 Ford Focus 1.6 Zetec Petrol.

Yesterday I drove my stepdad home, then my mum and daughter back to my house. I was fine, apart from 2 parts. The first was a slight hill start on mums farm track…I just could not find the biting point! I must have stalled about 10 times or more. Then when I got home my parking spaces are right outside my house, and I didn’t come in wide enough so ended up stupidly wonky, so I thought I’d just fix it and readjust. Again I struggled with the biting point and at one point I had my head on my steering wheel fighting back tears. I did eventually manage it.

Today, I had to drive my mum home then drive back on my own just with my daughter. I reversed out of mums drive perfectly, then came the dreaded hill start…I only stalled 3 times today doing that which was an improvement on yesterday. Driving home was perfectly fine, I even stopped at the shop. When it came to parking, I stalled once and my daughter said “nanna said to be patient, stay calm mummy calm”…and it honestly helped me hearing her little voice saying such a grown up bit of advice…and I parked perfectly after that.

Next week I’ll be picking Mum up, then we’ll be going into a town that’s about 40mins away to do my food shopping. I gotta challenge myself and get used to driving because in July I’ve gotta pick my Nan up who’s about a 2 n half hour journey away. It’s all just about getting used to my car as it’s totally different to what I did my lessons in. I’ll get there, I mean today was already a massive improvement on yesterday 🙂

What else has been happening…

I’ve mentioned on here before about a lad called Mackenzie. We’ve been friends a few years, went to school together but lost contact after I left (he’s the year below me) and got back in contact when I moved in with a mutual friend. Anyway it turns out we both liked each other for years but I never believed him when he flirted with me I thought it was a wind up til we spoke about it properly. Long story short- recently he’d been messaging me saying about missing me and wishing he could be with me etc etc, all very lovely cute stuff. He also said he couldn’t wait for me to be able to visit and that he’d visit me early June. I honestly believed that it could have turned into a relationship…then he went all quiet on me. Stopped replying, stopped writing nice comments on my photos…just total radio silence.

Well, I’m not an idiot I can see when he was last online thanks to stuff like WhatsApp and Facebook messenger etc…I can also see when he’s tagged in things with people. This girl had tagged him in a status, so I done the typical girl thing of finding her on Instagram to be nosey…and sure enough there were photos of mackenzie out with her. No biggie, guys and girls can be friends…only they weren’t just friends. I then saw a photo of them together on a day out… and saw her Facebook had changed to in a relationship. That explains the silence from him! I then sent him a message confronting him for leading me on, saying that I still wanna be his friend but that I don’t want him to come crawling back to me when it goes tits up with his new girlfriend…who strangely enough has the same first name as him. I find that rather weird personally I mean I hated it enough that my ex’s name and mine sounded similar together (Jamie and Amy). Each to their own I guess!

Anyway much to my surprise he did reply, but it came across as a very half arsed apology with no explanation…but it was the best I was gonna get outta him so I just left it at that. I highly doubt I’ll hear from him to be honest but at least I’ve said my piece and made him aware at how shit he made me feel…not that I think he actually cared about that but oh well!

I’m just done with the thought of relationships now, and no that doesn’t mean I’ll go for flings instead I have more self respect than that. I just seem to always get lied to etc and I just can’t be bothered with it anymore I’d rather be single.

I’ve started a new distance learning course about common health conditions though I’m starting to regret it as I just can’t motivate myself to sit n do it. But I’ve got to otherwise they’ll charge me £125 for it! So my plan tomorrow is to quickly tidy the living room as my daughter has released her hurricane of chaos, then ima put her cartoons on the tv so I’m not distracted and just get on with some more questions even if it’s just the draft then write them up another day. I’m doing it all by hand too might I add! It’s annoying I was looking forward to doing it but it took a while to come through so by the time I got it I’d lost my get up and go for it. Like I said though I’ve gotta complete it now I’ve got it…and hopefully I wont have to redo any questions so I can just get it over with.

Anyway, that’s all I can think of to write about. I don’t know when I’ll next post, having writers block, mixed with having to do a course, and just generally feeling a bit crap doesn’t make it easy to write a blog post unfortunately!

I hope everyone is ok and doing well.

🔹immeamy, you’re you, and that’s the best way to be🔹

Relationship Requirements. (Jokey post of boredom)

So I’m well and truly fed up of the male population. I keep getting lead on and treated like a mug so I jokingly said to Soph I should make an application form thing for any future guy who shows interest…well I’m bored so here it is 😂

please note that this isn’t me being serious I am only messing about I’m hardly gonna make guys fill out a form I’m a person not a job haha!

Let’s start with some more ‘light hearted’ requirements lol

1. How tall are you? (I’m 5ft 9, if you are under 5ft 8 im sorry but you’re friend-zoned, I’m like a theme park you gotta be a certain height to get in! 😂)

2. Do you have nice hands? (If you’re hands are gross I’m not letting you touch me)

3. Are you a noisy/messy eater? (If you are, please leave)

4. Do you have a varied music taste?

5. Do you play any musical instruments? (Bonus points if you do)

6. Do you like Disney films?

7. Do you do drugs or drink excessively? (If so, cya)

8. Do you have a job? (I have myself and my daughter to support, I’m not financially supporting you too)

9. Can you cook? (I can, but I hate it)

10. How hairy are you? (I’m not very keen on gorilla men sorry!)

11. Nights in or nights out?

12. Your opinion on tattoos?

13. Will you save me from spiders, bugs, and anything with wings?

14. Do you use the words bae, hun, babes or any other variation of spelling for those words? (If so please don’t ever use them on me I will hurt you)

15. When sharing a bed, how do you like to sleep? (I’m more of the give me a hug and a kiss then roll over and don’t touch me kinda person- I can’t sleep with someone breathing on me or crushing me with deadweight arms and legs lol)

16. Are you an animal lover? (If you hate animals we won’t work- I don’t trust anyone who’s nasty to animals)

17. Can you dance? (I’m always prancing round the kitchen like fat Monica in friends, so a dance partner would be good)

18. Will you bring me chocolate/junk food when I’m feeling shit? (Definitely extra points for that, but not if you turn up unannounced I hate that!)

19. Do you have a cute soppy side?

20. Are you cuddly? (I’m a cuddly person who needs to be cuddled!)

Ok so now onto more of the ‘serious side’ kinda like the terms and conditions I guess 😂

1. You must accept that I’m a mum and that my daughter will ALWAYS be my top priority over anyone including you. So don’t be a dick that gets jealous of the attention she gets. Also you have to treat her as if she was your own, but not in the sense of having any authority over her- she’s MY daughter, she follows MY rules not yours- you just gotta treat her nicely and if you can’t then I don’t wish to even know you.

2. Accept the fact I have tattoos- don’t try to make me cover up or use me as some freak show to parade around.

3. I don’t know how to accept compliments, so by all means use GENUINE compliments but don’t get arsey if I don’t believe you or don’t react much.

4. If you’re interested in me, then prove it. Don’t make me chase you, don’t make me think you like me one week to then forget I exist the next. And don’t just stop talking to me and move on to some other girl with no explanation- I’m not an idiot, social media is great in aiding people to find stuff out!

5. I’ve got no interest in traveling- I like England, and I hate boiling hot weather so don’t be expecting me to wanna go to Spain or whatever because it won’t happen.

6. Don’t hide things from me, and don’t lie to me.

7. I don’t need to see you every day, but a simple good morning and good night text would at least let me know you’ve thought about me.

8. Don’t make me feel like you’re ashamed to be with me. I like holding hands in public or messing around in shops together. I don’t wanna be walking around looking like I’m just in the friend zone.

9. Don’t act differently in front of your friends- it’s not attractive or cool to treat your other half like shit just to show off in front of your mates.

10. Understand that I have been hurt a lot in the past and find it hard to trust people- so don’t give me a reason to not trust you. I have nothing to hide what so ever so I’d appreciate it if you were the same.

11. I’m up for a laugh and banter etc, but not if it involves how I look. I have 0 self confidence and hate my body so even if in a jokey way you called me chubs or wobbled my legs for example, I won’t find it funny it’ll just make me more self conscious.

12. I will have days where I’m not all sunshine and lollipops, not very often but it’s part of who I am. So on those days just be there for me in whatever way I need you to be- whether it’s physically just to hug me, or if I want to be left alone and not touched just text me so I know that you care.

13. Have a sense of humour, but also know when to be serious too.

14. Dont expect me to jump into bed with you straight away- it’s been a long time since I’ve trusted anyone to be intimate with me and the last person broke that level of trust pretty badly so don’t be mad etc if I come across as ‘shy’ and ‘hesitant’ when it comes to that side of relationships. (It won’t last forever, I just have to build up that trust and feel safe)

My opinion on season 2 of 13 Reasons Why

There are some spoilers.

When the first season came out, a lot of people were claiming that it was glamourising/romanticising suicide- I disagree with that. Yes it was tough to watch, and I can see why it would be triggering to some people, but I think it was done really well and had me gripped from episode 1.

I waited ages for season 2 to see what happened next. And I’ll be honest, I was kinda disappointed.

Season 2 did not grip me as much as the first season- and it actually took til episode 11 to get me crying. It was no where near as dark and tough to watch as the first season, and I think that they were great in the fact that at the start and finish of each episode there was a warning and a helpline number/website.

I’ve seen a lot of people complaining about the use of Hannah’s ghost talking to Clay. I personally really liked that aspect, because there’s a lot of people who find comfort in having someone ghost with them after they’ve died. So I don’t see the issue in involving that as part of the story.

I got a bit bored of the court case if I’m honest, it seemed to go too slow then from episode 11 was a bit rushed.

The one scene I do not agree with, is when a character was shown being beaten up in the school toilets, then being penetrated with a broom handle- you don’t actually see it entering him, but it does show his facial expression as it happens and shows the end of the broom handle covered in blood. I thought it went a bit too far showing an assault like that personally, and was unneeded. It was the only scene I found uncomfortable to watch. However, there are warnings at the start of the episode so it’s not totally unexpected in a sense.

There must be a season 3 happening because of how this one ended, it’ll be interesting to see what they do with it and where the story goes. I do however think that there should only be 3 seasons, it’ll be far too much to go on longer than that.

I don’t see why people are complaining about it, as like I mentioned there are warnings at the start of every episode, and at the start of the first episode the cast are actually on screen giving the warnings. So if you know that yourself or your teenager aren’t in the right frame of mind or level of maturity to watch it after seeing the warnings, simply don’t watch it.

I myself have had depression from a young teen age, including self harm and suicide attempt. However, I know that I am not triggered by scenes in films etc. Yes they can make me cry etc, but they don’t make me want to self harm or copy what I’ve seen. However there are others who are very easily impressionable, and maybe more delicate/sensitive to graphic scenes and therefore should not watch it.

Warnings are there for a reason, and you know yourself better than anyone else so if you know you’ll find it hard to watch with graphic scenes, don’t put yourself through it.

🔹immeamy, you’re you, and that’s the best way to be🔹