3 reasons why my body is against me 

Before I start this, I am fully aware that there are people out there with medical conditions and disabilities etc that are a lot worse than what I’ll be discussing, however that doesn’t mean mine are any less ‘important’ and I am grateful that I don’t have anything a lot more serious than I do have. I’m writing this post because I’m exhausted and in a fair bit of pain and discomfort so thought sod it let’s share to try and distract myself a bit and help other people understand a bit better. 

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1.Pes Planus: Flat Feet/Fallen Arches

A ‘normal’ persons foot will have an arch in the bottom, whereas my feet are completely and utterly flat. 

This has caused my ligaments to be extremely weak and stretched, my ankle joints to also be weak, and to be in constant pain that can effect other parts of my body such as my knees, hips and back. When I stand/walk, most of my weight is on the inside of my feet, causing my feet to lean inwards which can affect my balance (which is why I often trip up and my mum calls me flappy feet) as instead of my feet pointing straight ahead when walking they can often go in the direction of my toes pointing outwards. Because of this, I can never borrow shoes from anyone purely because my feet ruin them, and there’s no point in me buying expensive shoes because they get misshaped. 

I have constant pain in my feet and ankles, when I’m in bed for example, there’s a dull kind of ache and light throbbing feeling, as soon as I stand up that worsens. If I walk even to the shop and back which is a 20min round trip, my ankles will become stiff and sometimes even swollen. I can’t go for very long walks without sitting down, as the pain can become unbearable if I don’t rest. I’ve got so used to the constant pain being there, that I actually fractured my right ankle without even knowing about it and I only found out when I went to hospital with another injury to the same ankle and they said “you’ll be fine with crutches you would have used them before with the previous fracture”…they were quite shocked when I said “what previous fracture?”! Having this issue with my feet and ankles puts me at a higher risk of developing arthritis in that area (if I don’t already have it), I’ve got a lot of the same ‘symptoms’ as my Nan who now has flat feet herself caused by rheumatoid arthritis. When I was younger I had specialist insoles made for my shoes to try and reduce the pain and support my ankles…these insoles were too big and bulky for all my shoes, and they caused me to be in even more pain so I stopped wearing them. The only other option I was given was surgery, which involved a procedure to basically break my feet and rebuild them with an arch…the downside would be that I wouldn’t have a lot of movement in my feet and ankles as part of them would be fused so I wouldn’t be able to do the movement of putting the clutch down in a car for example…so of course I declined that as it would leave me worse off. So I’ve just got to try and wear shoes that support my ankles such as trainers that are ‘high tops’ and just rest when I can; usually it can take me a couple of days to recover from too much walking, and even my driving lessons affect my ankles leaving them stiff and swollen the next day.

2. Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS)

I was diagnosed with this back in 2016 and I’ve hated it since. IBS is painful when it flares up, it’s like a mixture of severe period pain and trapped wind pain all at once aswell as making you feel nauseous. I’d actually rather go through child birth again instead of IBS pain. I can’t eat certain things such as yoghurt, certain ice cream, fried food, eggs, peppers (the list goes on) and sometimes I’ll eat something that I’m usually fine with and my stomach will decide it doesn’t like it on that day and make me have a flare up. 

TMI alert: another annoyance and uncomfortable part of having IBS is going to the toilet; for a person without IBS, when you feel like you need to empty your bowels there’s no urgency in a sense to get to the toilet, whereas with IBS as soon as I feel like I need to empty my bowels I have to get to a toilet asap, but, when I get there it can sometimes take me anything from 15 mins to an hour to actually have a bowel movement but I’ll be unable to move off the toilet because of the discomfort in my lower abdominal area which can be pretty embarrassing if I’m out or have someone at my house. When a flare up hits, it can come on extremely quickly and I’ll be crippled up in pain unable to sit up straight and it will hurt so much that it can make me breathless. I take Buscopan for this which luckily does help ease the pain within about 15mins, but those 15 mins feel like a lifetime when in that amount of pain. IBS also causes my stomach to bloat out whenever I eat, often only a little, but sometimes it can bloat so much I actually look pregnant! The other joy of IBS is that stress and anxiety can cause it to flare up too, which in turn makes me feel more stressed and anxious! 

3. Insomnia 

I’ve had insomnia since I was around 13. It was triggered by my great Aunty pat dying and the nightmares I had making me afraid to sleep. I never get a decent night sleep, if I do manage to fall asleep it’s a broken sleep where I’ll wake up pretty much every hour. It takes me hours to fall asleep no matter how exhausted I am I just can’t fall asleep easily, so I’m pretty much always in a state of tiredness. I have tried sleeping tablets before but they don’t agree with me and actually ‘trap’ me in my sleep (I slept for 15hours straight when I last tried them; I was having nightmares but just couldn’t wake up, and when I eventually did I was dripping with sweat, crying and hyperventilating). I used to be able to hide my tiredness pretty well years ago, or I had the option to just stay in bed and rest if I wanted to, but being a single mum I have to stay awake the whole time my daughter is awake and keep an eye on her all day which in turn adds to my tiredness! 

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So there you go, there’s 3 reasons my body is against me. Hopefully by reading this people will have more understanding when I say I’m tired, or that I can’t eat certain things anymore, or that I’m in too much pain to walk any further. 

🔹immeamy, you’re you, and that’s the best way to be🔹

Chatty ranty rambly blurgh 

Evening everyone I hope you’ve all had a good day…it’s been hammering it down with rain here this afternoon, which was actually quite relaxing to watch and listen to. However now, I can hear fucking banging and drilling and general DIY sounds coming from the house next-door-but-one!! There’s new people moving in I’m not sure whether the blokes I’ve seen actually live there or if they’re just builders doing the house up but my christ I do wish they’d hurry up and finish whatever the bloody hell theyre doing! I’m not in the best of moods today, I’m extremely tired because my daughter decided that 2:30am was a good time to wake up (she did then go back to sleep from 8am til 11am but I couldn’t sleep). So I have definitely been a bit of a zombie today that’s felt like I had a bad hang over all day. I’m currently trying to toilet train my daughter slowly, she’s even got special paw patrol knickers which she loves. Today she was nappyless for around 2-3 hours; she told me she wanted the loo so up the stairs we go (she chose to use upstairs one) and I sat her on her loo seat while I sat on the bathroom floor. We were there for around 20-30mins, singing songs, playing with the few toys she dragged along…did she wee? Nope. So back downstairs we go for about 15 mins and she says again that she needs the toilet: back up to bathroom and this time we sat there for about 10 mins still with nothing happening in the toilet. Even though she hasn’t been in the loo today, she also didn’t wet herself on the floor or anything so that’s good atleast! Why can’t toilet training be easy like what it is with cats…show them the loo, they get the scent and straight away know that’s where to do their business! 

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Why do some men think they’re gods gift that can get anyone in bed? I’m so sick of guys claiming they’d be able to “make me interested in sex again”. Is that the only important thing in life to these people? What happened to other types of intimacy like sharing each other’s passions and dreams etc. Am I old fashioned? I’ve mentioned before how the last time I had sex or was even sexually intimate with anyone was the day my daughter was conceived which woulda been back in 2013. I am not interested in sex purely because I don’t have a good relationship with it; sex has always been used as a ‘weapon’ against me, or made me feel used, and just generally given me negative feelings towards it the older I’ve become. It will take a lot for me to sleep with anyone again; 1. Because of my negative feelings towards sex, and 2.because I am so self conscious about my body now, even more so than before because now I have the added stretch marks from carrying my daughter, the extra wobbly bits on my tummy etc and the thought of anyone seeing me naked or touching my body makes me feel so anxious and uneasy. I’m not saying that I will never have sex again, or that I will never allow someone to touch me, what I am saying is that I will need to have full trust in them and feel comfortable with them to do so, which doesn’t happen over night! So when guys recon they could easily bed me, I don’t care who it is, it won’t happen (atleast for a very long time and I’d have to be in a relationship with them) even Johnny Depp could offer himself to be on a plate and I’d still refuse and would rather cuddle up instead. Stop trying to make sex an achievement or something, I’m not an Xbox game you don’t get points for every ‘level completed’ and there’s no cheats or walk throughs to help you out! Wanna get to know me? Ask me questions, talk to me and actually take the time to genuinely want to know about me. 

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So today on twitter I asked how youtubers knew what to talk about when first starting out, as it’s something I’ve been uming and aring about for months whether to try and start a YouTube channel. I think I tagged Zoe and Joe Sugg, Mark Ferris, Alfie Deyes, Louise Pentland, Jazzybum, Sophie Louise and Sophdoesnails to ask them for help, and the only one to reply was Sophdoesnails. She just simply said to find something you’re passionate about and talk about that…but as you’ve probably noticed if you read my blog often, I don’t like sticking to one kind of subject or style like I’m not a beauty blogger or parenting blogger but I will do the odd few posts about them. I’m passionate about helping people, but I’m not a qualified counsellor or psychologist etc so I can’t do a whole channel just based on mental health for example. I’m kinda stuck still, and still not sure if I’ll do it seeing as I do just have an iPhone so it would have to be unedited raw videos really. I might do a little tester video thing and put it in one of my blog posts instead to see how I feel talking to a camera etc I dunno it’s just a thought right now! Doing at least one video would possibly be good for my readers as they could then put a face and voice to my written words (I like knowing what people sound like when I’m reading their posts etc). Who knows! 

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My daughter has finally crashed out to sleep so now it’s my turn seeing as I’ve almost dropped my phone multiple times and struggling to keep my eyes open! If I feel up to it tomorrow I will be working on blog posts like Story Time ones etc so if you guys have anything in particular you’d like to read from me then chuck your suggestions in the comments 🙂 

🔹immeamy, you’re you, and that’s the best way to be🔹

“Grief Thief”

Yesterday on twitter I saw a post from Jeff Brazier asking people for their questions related to grief so that he could answer them via a YouTube video. Much to my surprise he actually answered mine in a video which I will link in a sec and then underneath I will give you some context to it. So here’s the link to the video (I hope it works if someone could please let me know that’d be great)

Let’s start from the beginning. I’m gonna just call this girl S rather than naming her as I’m not prepared to do that incase she gets backlash for it. 

S and myself were friends years ago, we spent a fair amount of time together for about a year then our friendship kind of fizzled out. She had met Andrew once when we bumped into him in town one day. I had told S about my feelings towards him and our friendship etc because she asked after who he was and how I knew him. The first thing she did, was take the piss out of his voice (he had a kinda squeaky voice in a sense, it wasn’t really bad but it wasn’t a deep manly voice unless he had a cold!), she also then made a comment about his neck/face (he had a scar from past surgeries to remove a growth) and was just generally bad mouthing him saying I was blind to like him. She did then add him on Facebook for some unknown reason and Andrew being the nice guy he was just accepted it because she was my ‘friend’. S only added him to be nosey. 

Anyone who really knew Andrew know that he was always in and out of hospital for various procedures and treatments to do with his illnesses he was born with. 

When Andrew died, literally a couple hours after, S sent me a message out of the blue. We hadn’t spoken to each other for about 2 years or more purely because she was someone I removed from my life that had a negative impact so I terminated the friendship. She messaged me outright asking what had happened to Andrew…knowing he was my closest friend, she didn’t even say ‘sorry to hear about Andrew, what happened?’ It was a simple “how did Andrew die”. This made my blood boil. I didn’t even answer her as I knew I’d lose it at her for being so nosey and down right disrespectful with no regards to my feelings whatsoever. What made it worse, a few days later Andrews cousins put a post up saying they were making memorial candles and if anyone would like one the money would go into a fund for Andrews young daughter (I have mine in my living room as I’ve posted about before somewhere on here). And guess who else bought one…yep! S bought one, and posted about how upset she was that he’d died and how much she misses him and how much she thinks about him, she even has the candle in her house for everyone to see. She’s a fake, and a complete attention seeker desperately wanting to get sympathy from anyone possible. I can’t stress how little she knew Andrew, and like I said they’d met once, and never spoke to each other (Andrew didn’t like her either he thought she was a bit odd and only accepted her on fb because he didn’t want me getting shit for him declining). 

I find it beyond disgusting and disrespectful to try and get sympathy from a tragedy just because you want attention. She has always been that kind of person, always coming out with lies to make you feel sorry for her…but this for me was one step too far. To claim to be hurt by the news of someone dying when you never had a good thing to say about them and had nothing to do with them just for a bit of attention makes me feel physically sick. How can people do things like that? Seriously, how can people be so pigheaded, self centred and disrespectful? 

As you’ve probably guessed I have nothing to do with this girl anymore and I never will again, I don’t have time for people like her. 

🔹immeamy, you’re you, and that’s the best way to be🔹

Chatty Tuesday 

I’m not gonna lie, I completely forgot that it’s Tuesday today! I had my food shopping delivered today whereas I usually have it delivered on a Monday so it kinda mashed my brain up a bit! My daughter is 3, can I still blame it on baby brain? Who cares I’m going to anyway! 

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Today has been a weird one. I woke up in a fairly good mood, and told myself that I’m going to keep that good mood all day. I had some lovely much needed cuddles from my daughter once she had woken up, then we went downstairs and I had a cuppa tea in a bright and cheery mug with a Foxs Tripple bar to dunk. I was feeling pretty content. 

Then my mood changed, and I suddenly felt very ‘meh’, and at one point was close to tears; I started over thinking about everything and thinking back to stuff like old memories where I had a fair amount of friends and had people who were genuinely pleased to see me when I arrived, and how now I barely even have people to talk to on a regular basis let alone see. This was my stupid mind having a moment, the logical part of me knows that obviously I don’t have people I can see because I can’t go out like I used to and I don’t know anyone here, and that I have a very select few people I can chat to when they’re able to if they’re not too busy, but when that shadow takes over it makes the logical side silent. 

I just generally felt pretty deflated for about an hour/hour and half…I snapped out of this mood when my post arrived as it was my monthly letter from my old school friend Sam (she never fails to send me a letter each month I love it). I then stayed pretty level for the rest of the day again. I even done some proper cooking today! As opposed to my usual lazy cooking. I actually made enough food for a meal every day up to Sunday (not including tomorrow as I’ve got a pizza for myself and my mum) so I’ve got them all in the freezer ready for each day 🙂 what did I cook you ask? Well; 5 Fried Chicken Breast with Curry Sauce, a bag of New Potatoes that I sliced up boiled and added herbs to, Brocoli, Runner Beans, and Cauliflower Rice which is just very finely diced cauliflower as a rice substitute. I had one portion of it today and it was bloody lovely even if I do say so myself! If I fancy some more veg during the week I’ve got some tinned sliced carrot because I’m lazy that I can add to it. I just really hope it all defrosts and heats up well! We shall see! 

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Tomorrow I’ve got my mum coming over; we don’t have any plans (we never do) but when she arrived we’re gonna try toilet training my daughter some more by banishing the nappy and letting her wear knickers instead to try and get her to tell us when she needs a wee…she knows that the toilet is for pee and poop, and that you shouldn’t do it on the floor (she gets upset if she has an accident on the floor and hates pee going down her legs bless her), but we just need to master the art of her being able to identify when she needs the loo before actually going and to tell me so that I can take her to the toilet. Easier said than done! So my plan for the morning before my mum gets here and once we’re up and dressed is to tidy up the living room and hoover so that if my daughter does accidentally pee on the floor it hopefully won’t be on any toys or books. Fingers crossed anyway! She’ll start off in a nappy before my mum comes though, as I don’t want her going to the front door just in knickers or peeing on my mum when she picks her up to wave to my stepdad! Though it would be pretty comical! 

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I was chatting to an old friend the other day who messaged me on Instagram about a memory thing that came up on Facebook. Was really nice having a random little natter with him, hadn’t spoken to him properly for a few years. He’s said that when I next get to visit my hometown to give him a shout and we’ll meet up, which will be nice as I haven’t actually seen him since around 2012/2013! 

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I’ve been good so far at not messaging that lad without him contacting me first…last heard from him Sunday when he messaged me at around 7:30am saying hey I really hope I get to meet you soon…yeah rather random but hey. I replied but haven’t heard from him since! Though he liked a couple of my recent Instagram posts today…I know steady on right! 😂 but I’m standing my ground I’m done making all the effort all the time just to get ignored or whatever. 

On the subject of men who are shit at communicating, I actually did send Mackenzie a message for the first time in maybe a month or more just to see how he was; usually with certain people I can ‘check’ they’re alright by their posts on social media, but mackenzie doesn’t post often so I could really do that, so I broke my rule of not messaging people first to check on how he’s been. He’s always been shit with replies but unlike most he doesn’t give me shitty excuses so he’s an exception lol. 

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I’ve got no driving lesson this week as my instructor is needed for trailer training or something, so I’ll just be taking a wonder to the shop Thursday morning instead for 10 mins of me time. I just hope it doesn’t rain! 

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I really wish I had fake grass in my garden instead of real grass. It’s so long it hasn’t been cut in around a year and it just looks horrible. I mean I never go in my garden mainly because there’s a stupid amount of spiders out there and I’m too scared to, but it’d be nice to look out onto a more presentable garden…I can’t cut it myself though as cut grass sets off my hayfever really badly and I’d rather not lose the ability to breathe! So for now, it’s just gonna be an unruly jungle! 

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My daughter seemed to skip ‘terrible twos’, but she’s certainly making up for it now she’s 3! Her hissy fits are a lot louder now, and she will throw stuff out of anger too while shouting at me…then she goes all cute again and comes to me all sweaty and red with a snotty nose asking for a hug as her way of saying sorry. She’s just had a strop because I’ve put my old phone on charge (she uses it for YouTube sometimes) even though she’s using the tablet to watch YouTube…toddlers logic for ya! She’s now whispering away to herself between big snotty sniffs and yawns! As a whole bless her she’s really good; she’s not one of those kids who constantly wants your attention, in fact she’s much happier playing by herself using her imagination and only involving you when she wants you to be involved. But my god when she’s in a strop you certainly know about it!!

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Well I think I’ve probably rambled on about pointless shit for long enough now! Hope you all have a good week! 

🔹immeamy, you’re you, and that’s the best way to be🔹

My Recommended Film Of The Month

I’ve got to write about this film, purely because my daughter is obsessed with it and often watches it twice a day lately! And that film….is Boss Baby. 

I love Boss Baby, quite frankly it’s bloody hilarious with a great story to it. I like how the film gives you another idea of where babies come from that is more interesting than a stork bringing them in a basked and leaving them on your doorstep! It’s also got some brilliant subtle adult humour in it too which makes it that bit more funny for the adults watching! Alec Baldwin was the perfect voice for Boss Baby, I can’t imagine anyone else doing it justice like he did. 

Boss baby is 100% worth watching no matter what age you are. My 3 year old daughter absolutely adores it and laughs away while watching it. 

I was lucky enough to get Boss Baby for free to download and receive the DVD for free too. If you have Sky tv, get the sky app and sign up to Sky VIP (it’s free) and depending on how long you’ve been a customer, depends on what gift you get. Because I’ve been a customer for almost 3 years, I could choose a movie to download onto my skybox and receive in the post, so I chose Boss Baby because my daughter had seen the trailer and loved it. Best freebie we’ve got in ages! 

🔹immeamy, you’re you, and that’s the best way to be🔹

F*#k It 😂 


That is it I hereby completely give up on the opposite sex; I’m fed up of being shit on from a great height. 

The lad I’d been talking to and taken a serious liking to is just completely doing my head in now. He ignores me, then Friday he asked what I was doing Saturday because he wanted to see if I was around…even though COUNTLESS fucking times I have told him that I can’t just go out whenever I want because I’m a single mum, I won’t invite random people to my house because I don’t want my daughter meeting people who aren’t gonna stay in her life aswell as the fact I have no idea what they’re like in person, and that there’s usually only one day a week if that where I can get out on my own for a few hours. Funny how he complains about living around 45mins/hour away from me, but when it suits him he wants to meet up. I bet if I were to say “sure come over and you can just stay the night” that he’d easily find a way here. (Not gonna happen btw). He then randomly tells me I look ‘really beautiful’ in my whatsapp picture, then just hasn’t bothered replying even though he’s read my message (those little blue ticks on whatsapp are both a blessing and a curse!). I’m pretty convinced that he’s got a few girls or at least one on the go to be honest…and that it’s a thing him and his mates do seeing as the first time I spoke to him on the phone his friend was there too and he was also ‘chatting girls up’. It’s really fucked me off because on paper we’re pretty well suited (apart from he drinks a bit too often). But hey, I’m done chasing now if he wants to talk to me then fine I’ll answer but I’m not making the effort anymore it’s a waste of my time and energy.

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Few months ago my mum actually said to me that she can’t see me getting into a relationship again…which to be honest was a bit of a kick in the proverbial bollox! I mean, yeah there’s good things about single like I don’t have to worry if someone is cheating on me, I don’t have to make an effort everyday with things such as shaving my legs because no one but me sees them (no I don’t look like big foots cousin, I don’t leave it that long I just don’t have to worry about doing it). But the bad thing about being single is the loneliness; I miss cuddling up to someone who can wrap their arms right around me, having someone who genuinely wants to know how my day has been and will make it better if it’s been shit, someone to just randomly leave a comment on a photo to make me smile…just all the soppy sentimental stuff really because sex really isn’t important to me so it’s not even that I miss sex because I can honestly say I don’t…I mean the last time for me was when my daughter was conceived and she’s 3years old now so that in itself shows I don’t really care about sex and that type of intimacy.


I’ve always described myself as a holiday. Basically guys fancy a change from their usual type of girls (usually the ‘Instagram pretty’ kinda girls that eat healthy and go to the gym etc) and will show interest me because I’m the opposite (heavily tattooed, can eat a large pizza to myself, has the humour and banter of a bloke etc). They reel me in, making me think that I’m in for a chance, then they just throw me back to sea and fuck off back ‘home’ to their usual type, leaving me to feel used and lied to. I’ve lost count how many times it’s happened, or how a guy will tell me they’re not ready for a relationship, but a week later will be in a relationship with someone else. It is safe to say my luck with men and relationships is seriously shite. 

I mean, if you like someone, like genuinely really like them, then actually prove it rather than being a dick and leaving them to wonder where the hell they stand with you. And maybe I’m old fashioned, but surely if you claim to like someone then you’re gonna be giving them all your attention, not sharing it out to whoever will take it?

Who knows, maybe next year once I’m hopefully driving and working I’ll be able to meet someone I click with…then again I could just end up even more like Bridget Jones and sit in my pjays singing to sad love songs 

Sorry for the random little rant, needed to let it out before trying to sleep as it’s not good to go to sleep while annoyed/angry etc. Anyone else got absolutely shit luck when it comes to relationships and dating? 

Fun fact: I’ve never actually been on a date. Have you? 

🔹immeamy, you’re you, and that’s the best way to be🔹

Another random quiz found on my old FB account 

LAST PERSON WHO1. Slept in your bed besides you? Family is my daughter, last person other than her was Harrison back in January 2016

2. Saw you cry? Mum and my daughter when we watched the new Beauty And The Beast film

3. Went to the movies with you? Someone who was a mate but isn’t now, was back in 2013 I think we saw The Conjuring 

4. You went to the mall with? Myself, but the lovely Mr Kay Browning came and saw me for about half an hour while I waited for my bus 

5. You went to dinner with? Chris and Lindsay back in September last year 

6. You talked on the phone? My Nan this afternoon 

7. Said ‘I love you’ to you and really meant it? Family wise would be my mum, non family…I think it was Harrison but I don’t really believe he meant it.

8. Broke your heart? I don’t really know, the last time my heart broke was when Andrew died so does that count?

9. Made you laugh? My daughter 🙂 
WOULD YOU RATHER?

1. Pierce your nose or tongue? I’ve already got both done 

2. Be serious or be funny? Both, it all depends on the situation 

3. Drink whole or skim milk? Semi skimmed milk I don’t like whole milk 

4. Die in a fire or drown? Well neither really haha!

5. Spend time with your parents or enemies? Parents obviously 
DO YOU PREFER.

1. Flowers or candy? Candy 

2. Gray or black? Black 

3. Coluor or black and white photos? I like both 

4. Lust or love? Love 

5. Sunrise or sunset? Both can be beautiful 

6. M&Ms or Skittles? M&ms I hate skittles 

8. Staying up late or waking up early? I’m ok waking up early if I’ve had a good night sleep…but that’s next to never so I’ll go for staying up late
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY.

1. Do you like anyone? I don’t know if I’m honest, part of me does but the logical sensible side of me doesn’t. 

2. Do they know it? He’s probably forgotten 
DO YOU PREFER.

1. Sun or moon? Moon

2. Winter or Fall? Fall

3. Left or right? Right

4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends? Two best friends 

5. Sun or rain? Rain if I’m indoors so I can get all cosy, but I do like it to be sunny just not boiling hot 

6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? Chocolate

7. Vodka or Jack? I used to like honey JD
ABOUT YOU.

1. What time is it? 00:40

2. Name? Amy

3. Nickname(s): doodles, amathyst (purposely spelt that way), mad sparrow, Rafiki, bubba…I’ve got loads

4. Where were you born? Hampshire in the UK 

5. What is your birth date? Wednesday 5th May 1993

6. What do you want? Sleep lol though I really fancy a rum and coke, a Chinese takeaway, and lotsa cuddles from someone who can properly wrap their arms round me.

7. Where do you want to live? I’m happy where I am 

8. How many kids do you want? No more than 3 at the absolute most 

9. What would you want to name a girl? If I had another daughter, i like the names Eponine, Melody, Elody, and Zoe 

10. What would you want to name a boy? Toby, Lex, Jareth, Tommy 

11. You want to get married? No not really I’d rather just have like a promise ring instead 
UNIQUE

1. Nervous Habits: biting the inside of my lip/cheek, picking/scratching at skin, tapping my feet really fast, laughing, gently scratching/rubbing my head there’s a few 

2. Are you double jointed? I have hyper mobility in a few joints apparently so yeah I guess some joints are 

3. Can you roll your tongue? Nope never been able to 

4. Can you raise one eyebrow? Yes I can 

5. Can you cross your eyes? Yep

6. Do you make your bed daily? I flick the duvet over that’s it, no point in making in properly as my daughter will just wreck it lol 

8. Which shoe goes on first? Left I think 

9. Ever thrown one at someone? Yes I have 

10. On the average, how much money do you carry with you? I tend to use my card rather than carry cash 

11. What jewellery do you wear? My piercings, a silver band on my left middle finger, silver band on right thumb, silver pentagon ring on right pointy finger and a claddagh ring on right ring finger 

1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it ? Twirl it 

2. Have you ever eaten Spam? Yeag I actually like it 

3. Favourite ice cream? Probably cookie dough 

4. How many kinds cereal are in your cabnet? None 

5. What’s your favourite beverage? At the moment it’s rubicon strawberry and kiwi 

7. Do you cook? Yes 
IN THE LAST MONTH, HAVE YOU? (YES OR NO)

1. Had a b/f or g/f? Nope 

2. Bought something you didn’t need? Yeah 

4. Sang in front of people? Yeah I sing to my daughter all the time 

5. Been kissed? Only by my daughter 

6. Been hugged? Again yes only by my daughter 

7. Felt stupid? More than likely 

8. Missed someone? Yeah 

9. Got drunk? Nope I’ve not have alcohol for about a year!

10. Got high? No I don’t do drugs 

11. Danced Crazy? Yeah

12. Gotten your hair cut? I cut it myself 

13. Cried? Yeah 

14. Lied? Yeah but only telling my daughter that paw patrol had finished when it hadn’t lol 
Lets start out with something clever, whats your sign?

Taurus
Congratulations! You’re pregnant, you say?

Wow that was clever how did I do that all by myself?!
If there was a large spider in the room, would you stay?

Nope!
Do you and your friends have the same taste in music?

Not exactly the same no 
Have you been a happy, angry, or sad person lately?

Maybe a mix of them all? 
Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?

Pyjama bottoms as I’m in bed 



Do you ever crack your knuckles/ back/ ankles/ wrists/ etc?

Yup most the time it’s involuntary 



Do you think before you speak?

Not always 



Can you sleep without blankets covering you?

No I always need the cover on atleast part of me 
Have you ever slapped someone across the face?

Yes 



Would you rather have your parents catch you having sex or smoking weed?

Smoking weed would be less awkward or embarrassing 



What was the weather like today?

Shite 



Has anyone seen you in your underwear this past month?

Nope 



Current relationship status?

Single 



What scares you more: snakes, spiders, or cockroaches?

Spiders 



Are you doing anything this weekend?

Nope!



Credit cards or cash?

Cash 



Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?

The other day hearing a lads cute giggle 



Have you ever played truth or dare?

Years ago yes 



Name the person you miss:

Andrew 



Do you like aggressive or innocent kisses?

Both 



Who’s the biggest slut you know?

No idea lol 



Has anything upset you in the last week? 

No don’t think so, I got a bit annoyed but not upset 
Is there one person you look at and automatically smile?

My daughter 
Are you nice to everyone?

I try to be
How many hours of sleep did you get last night?

6
What are you listening to?

My daughter snoring lol 
Ever been cheated on?

Yes, in every relationship.
How did you handle it?

Stupidly stayed with them/took them back. Turned into a paranoid emotional wreck 
Have you ever kissed anyone with a tongue ring?

Yes I have though it’s not a ring it’s a bar 
Where’s the last place you went besides your house?

Doctors surgery to pick up my prescription for IBS medication 
Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

That was Andrew, but I can’t do that anymore 😦 
Kill the spider or let it out?

I kill them purely because it gets rid of them quicker and I’m too much of a wuss to catch and release lol 
Are you short?

No I’m 5″9
What’s the most important part of a relationship in your opinion?

Friendship, trust, loyalty, happiness, support, love, care, and humour 
Do you like muddin in big trucks?

Never done it 
Do you curse in front of your parents?

Yeah I’m 24 I can say what I want lol 
Do you smoke weed everyday?

Not a chance the smell of it makes me feel sick 
Last thing that got you really happy?

I’m not sure really. I mean I’m happily content in life but I can’t think of anything that made me extra happy 
Do you straighten your hair everyday?

Nope I haven’t straightened my hair in years 
Think back to the last person you hugged; do they mean anything to you?

Well yeah my daughter is my world. Last non family member hug was Mackenzie and yeah I care about him but he’s done a bit of a disappearing act on me again 
Have you ever been in a really difficult situation to where you had to ask your friends for advice?

Not really I don’t think 
Does anyone have strong feelings for you?

I highly doubt it 
Have you ever been called selfish?

Yeah I have for really stupid reasons basically I put myself first for a change and they didn’t like it 
Do you have any friends that are alcoholics?

Not anymore I used to have a few heavy drinkers 
Last time you played beer pong?

Never played it 
Current song your listening to?

I’m not listening to anything at the moment 
Do you know anyone who is a cyclopes?

No lol 
Do you want to tell someone how you feel?

No I’m good 
Do you do drugs?

Nope 



Do you have any tattoos?

Yeah quite a few 



Are you under the age of 18?

Nope I’m 24



Do you have a job?

No but I will next year once my daughter starts school 



Do you plan on going to college?

No thanks! Went for 10 days when I was 16 and hated it so got a job instead lol 



How do you feel about abortion?

I personally wouldn’t have one unless there was a high risk of the baby being born with something seriously wrong or if my life was at risk, but I understand why some people do such as rape victims. 



What was something you wish was over, If so why?

Driving lessons, I wish I could do my theory and practical test and pass both so I can get a car and drive freely! 



Would you get married at 18?

No I wouldn’t I think that’s too young 



Have you ever been so wasted, you couldn’t walk?

No I don’t like being out of control 

Are you a waitress or have you ever been?

No but I’ve been bar staff 



Have you ever own a pair of Crocs?

No and I never will lol 



Do you or have you ever lived in a trailer?

Nope 



Does the last person who put their arm around you mean anything to you?

I can’t even remember who that woulda been it’s been so long 



Do you say sorry first?

If I’m in the wrong then yes 



Could you go a whole year without cursing?

Probably not lol 



Do you act differently around the person you like?

I guess I’d flirt a bit but that’s it really 



Are you happy with the way things are going?

Yeah I guess so, there’s some little things that’d make it better but I’m alright 



Have you smoked a cigarette today?

Nope I don’t smoke 



How’s your hair looking?

A mess as I’m still in bed 



Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?

I’m always myself I don’t believe in being anything else 



Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

I highly doubt that 



When you’re bored in class, what do you usually do?

I used to sit and draw or write poetry or my favourite song lyrics 



Have you ever kissed anyone whos name starts with a j,c,d,l,or z?

J yes, C yes, D yes, L yes, Z no.



What were you doing at 1 in the morning?

Trying to sleep 



How are you feeling at this moment?

Achey, hungry, tired and annoyed that people outside woke me up 



What ruined your day today?

My day has only just started really 



What are you doing right now?

Answering these questions 



Are you mad about anything?

Only at how noisy people outside are being 



If you were given $100, would you spend it or save it?

I’d probably put it towards my driving lessons 



Who was the last person you have a missed call from?

No one, because no one really calls me other than mum and Nan 



Do you wear flip-flops during the winter?

I don’t even wear them in the summer

Do you want your tongue pierced?

Done already 



Are you comfortable with your height?

Yeah I like my height, though it’s proven difficult to find men taller than me that I like 



What is on your wrists right now?

A sophie lancaster charity wrist band 



Where did you last sleep other than your own bed?

Dozing on the sofa 



How was last night?

Pretty boring 



Who did you talk to on the phone last, why?

My Nan just to see how she is 



Who’s in your profile picture with you?

No one just me 



Whens the last time you had alcohol?

September last year 



In school, how was/is your attendance record?

Really bad I hated school 



Weed, coke, crack, heroin, oxy, acid, ex, k, peyote, mushrooms, opium?

None of them thanks 



What were you doing at 11:47 pm last night?

Trying to sleep 



Where did you get the jeans that you’re wearing?

I’m not wearing jeans 



How many times have you dyed your hair?

So many times over the years 



How did you bring in the New Year?

I was in bed before midnight I think 



Do you find smoking unattractive?

No but it doesn’t bother me if someone smokes 



Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?

Yeah seeing as I don’t smoke 



Have you ever liked someone and pretended you didnt?

Probably 



Why did you last cry?

Probably watching something on TV 



How many people do you trust?

Maybe like 1 person 



Can you honestly say that you’re okay right now?

Yeah I’m alright as a whole



Plans for the weekend?

Absolutely nothing just like every other weekend 



Do you know anyone who smokes pot?

Too many 



Do you wear eyeliner?

Sometimes, not as often as I used to 



How’s your life lately?

It’s alright, can get a bit lonely sometimes but I’m good 



Do you miss anyone?

Swear this has been asked like twice already lol 



Don’t you think that people that smoke are gross?

Nope 



Have you ever gotten alcohol poisoning?

Nope 



Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?

Because she’s my daughter and I love her lol non family; because he kissed me and I liked him. 



Is that person your boyfriend?

No 



Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

My daughter yes of course, but I doubt Mackenzie would kiss me again think he lost interest a long time ago 



When did you last see the person you miss most?

I last saw Andrew before I moved away 😦 he was ill when I visited so couldn’t meet up 



Whats the closest blue thing to you?

My daughters Dory cushion 



Think back to the last two people you kissed, do they know each other?

Non family was Mackenzie and Harrison, they’ve met each other but they’re not friends 



Last movie you watched?

Boss Baby



Will you talk to the person you like tonight?

I don’t even know if I really like anyone, I keep getting disappointed 



Does this person like you too?

Doubtful 



Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?

My daughter when she’s not being a demon child lol 



Would you consider getting pregnant at a young age just so you could live with your boyfriend?

No that’s stupid 



Which would be more meaningful to you: I love you a lot, I love you so much, or i love you more than anything?

Any as long as they meant it 



Does anyone disgust you?

Probably 



When was the last time you completely broke down?

My last bad break down was before I was pregnant with my daughter, but when Andrew died I had to fight a break down off for the sake of my daughter as I didn’t want her seeing me like that. If I didn’t have her I don’t know what I’d have done.



Can you remember the first place where you kissed the last person you kissed?

Mackenzie-outside the travel lodge I was staying in last year 



Do you think lil wayne is the best rapper alive?

Not a chance 



Do people ever call you by your last name?

No



Do any of your friends dislike each other?

I don’t know, I don’t really have many my circle is very small and tbh I don’t think they know each other 



What will you be doing in 3 hours?

Possibly reading or drawing 



Do you hate being alone?

Sometimes, especially if I’m ill 



Is there anyone you wouldnt mind punching right now? Who?

Not that I can think of no 

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone’s life?

I’ve been told I have but I doubt it’s true

🔹immeamy, you’re you, and that’s the best way to be🔹